I have a gut feeling that there is more to autism than just a different brain wiring!

Subtitle: “Dorothy, go with your gut instincts!” – said the Wizard of Oz

The other day one of my very close Facebook friends who I love and respect dearly asked for my thoughts on an article that she posted on her Facebook Page from PsychCentral about co-occurring disorders with ADHD. My friend had a provocative thought related to the topic which I find very intriguing, that co-occurring disorders might be a form of societal Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) from systemic bullying and abuse.

My first mental reaction was to mention that I pay very little attention to psychiatric labels primarily due to the ambiguity of descriptions, and the overlapping of symptoms with a variety of those labels.

The label ADHD is one of the most controversial labels introduced into the psychiatric lexicon, and most psychologists and psychiatrists cannot agree on a definitive and concrete set of characteristics, and it may be masking a biological or neurological difference such as autism.

In fact, often an autistic child that is verbal is first diagnosed with ADHD, and if he/she is lucky, a knowledgeable professional will eventually realize that the child is on the Autism Spectrum and change course regarding therapy.

One of the main co-occurring disorders mentioned in the PsychCentral articles was Anxiety Disorder. There are various sub-classifications pertaining to that label, and the principal generic one is Generalized Anxiety Disorder. That particular label was added to my Autistic Label when I was eleven years old, note after the autism diagnosis.

The main problem that I have with psychological or psychiatric labels is that most of the time the professionals that dish those out are focussing on the behavior of the individual and ignoring any environmental or biological components that might be involved in manifesting that behavior.

Consequently, I prefer to dissect the problem down to the cellular level which I did in my comments on my friend’s Facebook post but I attempted to do that at a high level assuming the reader may not be either interested nor knowledgeable in the nitty gritty. πŸ™‚

The gamut of psychological labels pertaining to disorders and my thoughts:

There are three primary core stimuli that result in these perceived labels or disorders, 1) cellular makeup that affects both the brain and the gut, 2) brain synapses that are either not connected, misconnected or over-connected, and 3) conditioned mental responses that are programmed in the brain based on the experiences of a person over the course of their lifetime.

One could posit that PTSD is a result of the latter of the three stimuli, a learned response that is triggered based on a previous shock to the mental system.

Most neuroscientists refer to the brain as being plasticized meaning that it changes constantly as a result of a variety of causes. However, as with PTSD, a traumatic event can cause a permanent mini-software program that is difficult or impossible to reprogram.

When we talk about ADHD, what is really going on is an abnormal amount of electrical impulses being fired by neuronal cells, and often short-circuiting synapses. Think of sticking your finger into an electrical socket and that’s sort of what is going on in the brain.

Regarding mood disorders, the majority of those are a result of a predisposition caused by the core DNA genetic profile of a person. In fact, they have identified certain genes that result in some of those conditions, and the ones identified to date that are shared by those with autism are Bipolar Disorder and Schizophrenia.

The actual cellular makeup is at the root of most psychiatric and neurological disorders, and there are two primary occurrences that affect that.

The first being the de novo mutations of cells just prior to birth, and the physical state of the mother during the gestation period.

The autoimmune system of a woman during pregnancy can go haywire, and as a result an abnormal amount of inflammation can affect a fetus.

That inflammation in turn affects the cells of the fetus, often causing abnormal responses resulting in a myriad of potential illnesses including autism.

It’s a big complicated systemic mess, and science to date has only scratched the surface in trying to figure it out. If they ever do, then epigenesis will be a viable and scary option.

When we consider “systemic bullying and abuse” upon autistics, the results of that often leads to the label of PTSD which characterizes my description of the brain being reprogrammed to adjust to that stimuli. I was a victim of that in childhood and adolescence, and I still suffer occasional PTSD episodes as a result even in my old age. As I postulated, that type of programming is very difficult if not impossible to reprogram.

To elaborate a little more, many in the psychiatric community consider ADHD a bogus diagnosis and label. I’m on the fence regarding that one because technically I fit the profile.

The real issue from both parts of the article is attempting to tie in ADHD with other psychiatric labels.

Statistically the author is correct, the majority of the time anyone diagnosed with ADHD will probably have one or more comorbid psychological disorders, and General Anxiety Disorder is somewhat universal with anyone given the ADHD label including Autism.

My impression is that the author was trying to tie those disorders together in some fashion, when in reality they may be totally discrete with varying causes.

Often the psychology professional focuses on the mental state of a patient and rarely investigates a biological or an environmental component as a root cause for a condition or disorder.

As an example in respect to autism there are many reported cases of positive changes in an autistic child once their diet has been modified via trial and error to identify certain food groups that may be affecting their digestive system.

With this example, what has really occurred is a change in the gut flora and the gut neuronal cells of that child.

The human body is probably the most sophisticated system on the planet and the most complicated simultaneously. With that said, all stimuli needs to be taken into account when attempting to either diagnose, diffuse, or alter a person’s makeup, both physically and mentally.

To wrap up this verbose post, my friend triggered a lot of thoughts on a convoluted and intertwined set of possibly related disorders, hypothesizing that ADHD may in fact be a form of PTSD induced by bullying and psychological abuse caused by society in general. I find that theory quite plausible and interesting to think about.

In fact, it just may be that humans have an innate need to bully and abuse others as a defense mechanism for their own perceived inadequacies. Some humans overtly and deliberately do it, and others may subconsciously do it without realizing it.

And maybe they all do it because they have a tummy ache, and the tummy brain is sending nasty “do this” messages to its cousin, that three pound glob between one’s ears.

If you’re still with me on this one, the next time someone tries to explain to me that 1) autism is just a different brain wiring or 2) a PsychCentral author attempts to postulate mental disorders without exploring the biological or neurological causes, you may get a really long mouthful from an old autistic. πŸ™‚

To be continued…

Article: Think Twice: How the Gut’s “Second Brain” Influences Mood and Well-Being

Article: New neurons reveal clues about an individual’s autism

Article: Co-occurring Disorders and ADHD Part One

Article: Co-occurring Disorders with ADHD Part Two

 

OMG! Paracetamol aka acetaminophen aka Tylenol in the US causes Autism!

Subtitle: Let’s all yawn together for another silly autism cause du jour…

In case you missed it over the past few days, there were about a zillion website articles citing a recent study done in Spain that Paracetamol taken by pregnant mothers can increase the likelihood of autism, mainly in boys. I found one article that basically disagrees and debunks that premise, and personally I disagree with it too; that article is attached.

Paracetamol has been around since 1877, and it is a combination of chemicals derived primarily from aniline which is a toxic compound. The word ‘toxic’ is a red flag and actually there are some people with certain conditions that should avoid taking it. However, other than those individuals, it is a reasonably safe over-the-counter medication.

What it does not do is reduce inflammation, i.e. act as anti-inflammatory medication such as Ibuprofen, a Non-steroidal Anti-inflammatory medication which is also an over-the-counter available medication.

Since humans are averse to pain, we’re always looking for a “quick fix” such as a cheap tablet that is easily accessible, preferably without seeing a doctor and available at our local pharmacy, drug store, or supermarket.

Both Paracetamol and Ibuprofen are reasonably inexpensive and easy to acquire. However, I would recommend to a pregnant woman in pain to consider using Ibuprofen opposed to Paracetamol.

And the reason for that if you’ve read any of my earlier posts is that there is strong scientific evidence related to inflammation and the autoimmune system that may very well be the “smoking gun” as part of the real cause for autism.

If one accepts that premise as potentially valid, then controlling inflammation and quieting the autoimmune system might be a good strategy if one is concerned about having an autistic baby.

Personally, I’m glad my mother had an autistic baby, me, and I’m even more grateful that I do not have that infamous comorbid Intellectual Disabilty that often accompanies autism; however, I do have a serious Autoimmune Disorder related to autism.

If scientists want a real challenge to undertake, let’s stop trying to figure out the latest cause du jour of autism, and focus on the comorbid conditions that are often far worse, i.e. Intellectual Disablility and Autoimmune Disorders.

To me that makes sense but unfortunately I think logically and it appears that most scientists don’t. πŸ™‚

To be continued…

Article: Link Between Autism and Paracetamol Dismissed by Scientists

Autism, split personalities, and feeling blessed. Is that possible?

Subtitle: “Why of course Dorothy. Anything is possible” – said the Wizard of Oz

A lot of us autistics feel like aliens from different planets, and at times I’m damn sure that I came from an ‘alien oval planet’. πŸ™‚ In fact, when I think about all of my immediate relatives that are either autistic or slightly autitstic, that definitely makes sense to me.

I do have to confess though that I do have a split personality. I have two Facebook accounts, one for being autistic, and one for being a local resident and businessman in Mexico where I live full-time.

I do not make it a secret that I’m autistic nor am I ashamed of it. It is part of my being and essence, and I’m truly grateful that I was blessed with this neurodiversity. But I do not where a T-shirt advertising it because that’s a bit over-the-top just like Mr. Donald Trump. πŸ™‚

If I listed all of the reasons why I feel this way, a proud autistic, this post would be a book versus a few hundred words. But I am equally proud that over the decades I have learned how to communicate and relate to others whether they are autistic or non-autistic.

This evening I received a Facebook comment on a post in my non-autistic Facebook identity from one of my neighbors.

Recently I posted my current home for sale in my neighborhood on my business Facebook Page because it is too big for one old fart and a slightly old female chihuahua. I decided to downsize to a house in my same neighborhood that is half the size.

My neighbor who saw the post was concerned that I was leaving the area, and that generated all sorts of emotions in me of a good kind.

That neighbor doesn’t know that I’m autistic. All he knows is that he has a very friendly neighbor that engages with him from time to time in chats, sometimes in English and sometimes in Spanish, and his concern demonstrated to me that I have made a small impact in his life in a good way, by trying to be a nice person and assimilate in a culture that is not my native.

At the moment I’m on ‘Cloud 9’ if you know that expression, and as an autistic it took me awhile to figure that one out since we autistics take words literally.

Lots of people think that being autistic is either a death sentence or an incredible disability that precludes an autistic from being a contributing member of society.

That is true for some, especially if they have a comorbid condition of Intellectual Disablity, formerly referred to as Mental Retardation, or being called “a retard” which I was called over and over as a child and an adolescent.

Technically one could say that our brains are malformed in various ways, and I suppose that technically it could be considered a form of brain retardation, but definitely not mental retardation; the latter implies the inability to think and process information.

However, I disagree with that premise and I strongly feel that we autistics are blessed with brains that can transcend many of the silly nuances, rituals, and protocols that non-autistics feel compelled to abide by.

The reason for that is that most autistics tend to be themselves without the knowledge, the innate ability, nor the training to “fit in” with what is artificially called “being normal”.

Over the last fifty plus years I have accomplished a lot. I managed to overcome an horrendous speech disorder called Developmental Verbal Dyspraxia, and most importantly I have learned how to get along with other humans.

Sometimes getting along with other humans requires a conscious decision not to engage in their bullshit nor fuel their need to put down other human beings; the latter appears to be a non-autistic trait that we autistics were blessed not to have. πŸ™‚

And we autistics tend to see the good in people versus looking for faults. And if there was one autistic trait that I would put at the top of the ‘Blessed List’ that would be it.

That is my philosophy for getting along with people, assuming that they are good people until proven otherwise, and that is the reason that I am blessed with neighbors and acquaintances that could care less if I’m autistic or not.

They only know the nice old guy that engages with them in conversations, waves at them when they drive by, and projects an image of a happy person.

In summary, I’m a happy person, I’m a person that feels blessed, and that indescribable energy seems to resonate with others.

Keep that in mind.

To be continued…

Is Facebook a dangerous place to engage if you’re autistic?

Subtitle: It could be…

I really had no inspiration to write anything today because I was working on my non-virtual work related activity locally.

However, I decided to tune-in to Facebook, catch up on my FB News Feed, and the topics, posts, and stories just set me off emotionally!

First it was the pending lawsuit over the election fraud in the US pertaining to the Democratic Primary votes, and then it was various posts regarding the tragedy that occurred in Orlando, Florida. If you don’t know about that one, 50 plus individuals were gunned downed the other night in a Gay nightclub by an alleged Islamic whatever.

The latter was the most disturbing for me because it had to do with guns, secondly because it targeted a minority, and thirdly because the news media is trying to use that ‘Islamic’ card again to place the blame.

My first thought was the Sandy Hook Massacre of children by a young man, Adam Lanza, who allegedly had Asperger’s Syndrome.

If you remember that news cycle, all of us autistics were shivering in fear thinking that our neighbors, friends, and acquaintances might think that any one of us could replicate that same mayhem. And many of us autistic writers immediately got busy trying to debunk the connection of having Asperger’s or autism with violence.

Here we go again! This time it’s another news cycle using Islam or being Muslim as a reason for unfathomable violence, when in fact it probably has nothing to do with it.

When one individual decides to do such horrific carnage, there’s a lot more to the story than their religious affiliation or political viewpoints. Those aspects may play a part, but the root of their decisions to do such anti-social behavior is primarily based on their psychological instability.

There are a ton of catchy labels to attach to those types of psychological profiles including sociopath and psychopath, but labels are totally irrelevant.

What is important is how easy it is for someone that is psychologically unstable to acquire the means to perpetrate such horror.

In the US we have a cultural problem and an archaic aspect of the US Constitution called the Second Amendment. Compared to other World Cultures, the US is an infant. We basically became an official “country” in the late 1700’s, and if one studies the history of other large countries, most are much older and have had the time to mature to a logical way of operating.

Guns and ammunition are still relatively easy to acquire in the US. We have Gun Shows, Gun Stores, and even Walmart sells guns.

Part of the cultural problem is that a lot of US citizens still fear that either the US Government might become a ‘Police State’ and infringe on their rights, or they fear that some criminal might try to invade their home, steal their belongings, and even kill them. The latter I can understand and agree with, and I see no issue with a sane individual owning a handgun to protect themselves or their family.

This latest US mass killing which is marketed as one of the worst yet involved assault weapons which are capable of killing lots of people very quickly, and that’s what happened.

Today is Monday, and I guarantee you by Friday this will blow over in the news media, just like what happened with the mass killing of children at the Sandy Hook Elementary School.

However, before this totally blows over, I wouldn’t be surprised that they claim the gunman was autistic or had Asperger’s Syndrome. That seems to be another easy excuse to use besides somebody’s religion, and there’s another murder trial going on right now where the defense is using ‘autism’ as a defense mechanism.

Will I stop getting on Facebook and avoid social media altogether to avoid being emotionally set off? No, I won’t.

But I will chime in with my thoughts on these issues even if they are not related to autism, because I am scared to death that we autistics will be used again as scapegoats for the actions of maniacs.

To be continued…

How does an autistic describe what it feels like to be autistic?

Subtitle: “A scratchy shirt collar label can cause me a meltdown.” – one of my responses

I’m always impressed when I see a major news magazine or a similar conduit to the masses speak about autism in a candid and less than ignorant fashion.

The attached article has links to videos which provide the reader/viewer with some interesting perspectives on what it’s like to be autistic.

For most of us autistics, it’s a day to day fluctuating experience. Some days almost anything can cause us anxiety or a meltdown, and on other days nothing seems to bother us.

The above is one of the reasons that putting qualifiers on autism is a bogus metric.

For the majority of us there is no “high functioning” or “low functioning” or anything in the middle. It fluctuates daily depending on lots of external stimuli, whether or not we were able to get a good night’s sleep, and whether or not there is some stressful situation in our lives that we are trying to navigate.

Normally when I read stories from other autistics or see videos like those included in the Forbes’ article attached, I can easily relate to all of them.

We now use the word “spectrum” when referring to autism, but most people use it incorrectly. That word actually refers to a cafeteria style of symptoms, and has nothing to do with a qualifying metric.

Some of us have severe Sensory Processing Disorder, and when we’re out in public, in a restaurant, or in a large store with lots of people, all of those sounds become overwhelming because our brains can’t filter the important noise from the ancillary noise. It’s probably one of the most painful experiences that we have to endure on a regular basis.

That particular aspect is quite profound with me, however sometimes I can blend in with non-autistic people and go about my business in a large store with lots of people.

But when I’m in a restaurant and that occurs, the clatter of dishes, the conversations at other tables increasing and decreasing in volume, the conversations switching between people that I’m seated with, I just can’t cope.

In fact, I normally use my addiction of cigarettes (STIM) to say, “I’m going out for a smoke…” only to get away from all of that chaos that my brain cannot process nor filter out.

One thing that I have overcome is the incessant barking of dogs in the night in my neighborhood. I live in Mexico and almost everyone has a dog as an adjunct security device.

Often in the late evening when I’m going to bed, all of the dogs in the neighborhood one by one start their evening conversation with each other, probably sharing their own personal experiences with their masters or their frustrations being kept behind gates.

That cackle of barks used to set me off, and once about five years ago I actually had a meltdown, went outside and started screaming obscenities at the dog on the other side of the concrete wall, hoping he would get the message and stop. It didn’t work, and I moved. πŸ™‚

However, now in my current and permanent neighborhood I have a different perspective, and a method for handling that evening neighborhood conversation amongst my four legged neighbors.

Since I love dogs in general, and I have one myself, I now realize that they need to spend twenty or thirty minutes every night communicating with their friends on the other sides of walls.

I suspect that’s their method for releasing any anxiety they’ve experienced during the day, looking for a sounding board to vent to, and quite possibly their listeners and neighbors are sympathetic and attempting to console those that need consolation.

When I reached that point in my life a few years ago, being able to handle the nighttime chatter of my four legged neighbors, I felt such an exultation of success that it’s indescribable.

If I can figure out different methods for stores, restaurants, and other venues with large crowds, then maybe I could blend in a little easier and not need my escape of a smoke break. πŸ™‚

If you’re autistic like me, I hope you find little tricks or psychological methods to help you cope just a little better and tricking your brain not to go haywire. πŸ™‚

Forbes article: ‘Experience what it feels like to have autism

Can “make believe” help with autism?

Subtitle: It did for me…

Two of the core elements of autism, communication and social interaction, are considered deficient, missing, or outside the β€œnorm” (whatever that means) with us autistics.

Furthermore it is often written about that we autistics live in our own β€œworld” with our own reality. The truth is that everyone regardless of whether or not they are autistic experiences their own reality based on what they have perceived or learned over the years.

The challenge when we’re young is figuring out how to assimilate amongst our peers. It’s foreign to us even though we desperately want those connections and to fit in. But how do we learn the process to accomplish that when it’s not an innate skill that we’re born with?

That’s what this article is all about. Using drama lessons to help autistic children apply their skill of β€œmake believe” but with a systematic script of words, actions, and feelings to learn and practice.

In 1958 when I was diagnosed autistic, that’s exactly what my mother did. She enrolled me in a local theatrical school in Los Angeles, California taking drama lessons, singing lessons, and tap dancing lessons.

The tap dancing lessons helped me to learn how to control my limbs that did not respond naturally to my brain signals. The singing lessons helped me to learn how to articulate and pronounce words more correctly along with slowing my rate of speech by systematically using the rhythm of music and the exact placement of a word within a song. And most importantly the drama lessons helped me to learn how society interprets and reacts to stimuli or messages from others, and to store those systemic patterns for further use.

By the time that I entered high school, those drama lessons gave me a set of scripts to apply in all sorts of situations with other people. It has always been a work in progress for me, and it still is today at my current age of 64.

My mother believed in β€œthinking out of the box” in 1958 by incorporating these methods to help her autistic child, and now the professionals are finally catching up.

Who would have thought? πŸ™‚

To be continued…

Excerpt: “Improvisation exercises are also useful because so many autistic kids otherwise rely on β€œscripts” to navigate social situations.”

Article from The Atlantic: ‘Boosting Social Skills in Autistic Kids With Drama

If you’re autistic do you have a safe place?

Subtitle: I have my special place…

Recently I was catching up with Google Alert emails that send me automated links to articles about autism, and one in particular grabbed my attention.

I decided to click on the link and watch the video about a young man with Asperger’s Syndrome that described what had happened to him when his caregiver gave him a new challenge, getting from Point A to Point B by using a map.

When I read the description of the video before watching it what compelled me to watch it were the words “map reading” because that’s one of my escapes when I’m bored, consequently I was hooked.

I thought that maybe I’d learn some new way to engage in that activity and possibly some new trick to further my skill at remembering those tiny obscure places that represent locations of people, places, and things, but that didn’t happen.

What did happen was a view into his world as he sees the external world, a frightening loud mishmash of sights and sounds that causes his brain to nearly shutdown altogether.

His ability to explain his reactions resonated with me deeply and I suspect it would with lots of other autistics when we try and blend into society outside of our own homes.

We’re either told to β€œsuck it up and deal with it” or someone attempts to teach us how to cope with these foreign realities, but most of the time that doesn’t work.

“Loss of control” coupled with “sensory overload” is a common result with many of us autistics, and in order to mitigate the heightened anxiety we use our “STIMs” and have our “safe places”.

And the reason for that is that our brains can’t be molded nor modified to filter out stimuli that is actually quite painful or scary. “We’re wired differently” as most of my tribespeople attest to and that’s a pretty good high level explanation for it.

Often in various autism related Facebook groups, someone will post a question about this asking other members how they navigate the chaos outside of our homes, probably looking for advice or comparing their methods for handling it.

I have several methods but no real advice, I only know what works for me.

I generally avoid large groups such as parties, even though I like to be invited. I have my two hands which often cover my ears when there is a loud noise. I have my anti-anxiety medication which I take as needed. I have my mostly bald head with a crew cut as a tool, and I’ve noticed that I use my left hand to rub that stubble over and over when I’m feeling anxious. I smoke unfortunately, the same as my autistic mother did, and I’m pretty sure that’s one of my STIMs as well. To help me sleep, I always have a comforter over me even in summer, and I sleep with a pillow over my head; I think the weight of those objects make me feel safe.

And finally for a safe place to hang out, I love small quiet spaces where I can feel isolated.

Fortunately I have a small patio at the rear of my house that is almost completely enclosed; I’m in that safe place right now as I’m typing my thoughts.

If you’re autistic like me, how do you cope and do you have a safe place?

The young man in the attached video does a much better job explaining it than I can.

To be continued…

From The Guardian UK: Autism: Getting Lost In London Video

Autism and diversity: what is one medium that unites all humans and some animals too?

Subtitle: It’s start with the letter ‘m’…

There’s a topic that I like to write about which starts with the letter ‘m’. This ‘m’ thing has been one of my closest friends, one of my best healers, and the number one place that I like to go when I need to either escape or find a connection.

We autistics often feel like the “third wheel” or “an alien from another planet”. I’m certain that I come from an “alien oval planet” but I suspect other autistics might feel that they come from triangular or even square planets. πŸ™‚ In the end it doesn’t matter because we just feel different than most people who cross our paths.

However, sometimes ‘unlike beings’ can discover that either they share a certain trait or they share a common interest. And when that happens, there’s a connection between those two different entities.

Creating a connection with someone is how a friendship is started or even a romantic relationship. That bond will hopefully grow to unexplainable proportions that often lasts a lifetime.

The bond that I cultivated at a very early age was with that ‘m’ thing, and over the first decade and a half of my life the ‘m’ thing enabled me to successfully communicate verbally with humans. It was a long process that required lots of work and practice on my part, but it worked.

As an old autistic surveying the chaos in the world with humans that either don’t get along or feel that they need power over other humans, I often think that they need to meet my friend the ‘m’ thing, find some common ground or common interest, and realize that they might not be as diverse as they thought.

This last thought came to me as I was perusing the latest news-bytes in the US about the remaining Presidential candidates, Clinton, Sanders, and Trump.

On one hand it’s quite entertaining to watch either The Bernie and Hillary Show or watch the one-man show, The Donald Show.

Each is trying to differentiate themselves from the other and win favor with the American people in order to be the next US President; unfortunately only one will achieve that honor and the losers will have to find something else to do.

And probably the saddest part of this that I’ve noticed is how the voters get so fired up against one another depending on who they like that they forget they all share the same species and country.

Not all autistics get along either but normally we find some common ground or motive to rally around to unite us. Most of my autistic friends deplore Autism Speaks so that is our thread to unite us, i.e. Light It Up Gold and NOT Light It Up Blue. πŸ™‚

My friend the ‘m’ thing has some unique powers in my view that could help with almost any chaos or disagreement by transcending language, country, or political party with sounds to evoke emotions, and most of the time the ‘m’ thing creates a unifying result amongst diverse humans that is indescribable with words.

If you have your doubts or you don’t believe me, watch the attached video and formulate your own thoughts.

This is my ‘m’ friend at his or her best.

To be continued…

What’s the connection between autism and music?

Subtitle: My answer would be magic…

For the past month and a half I have been preoccupied (obsessed) with watching and participating in the Sen. Bernie Sanders campaign for the US Democratic Party nomination.

That man inspired me and made me feel part of him along with wanting to do whatever I could do to help him win the nomination in order to help average souls in the US.

Today I took a break and did what I really enjoy in order to relax and generate emotions and feelings inside of me that make me feel good.

I decided to tune into various YouTube videos which comprise the various music contests internationally. On YouTube I have two favorites, ‘Britain’s Got Talent’ and ‘X Factor UK’. Today I focussed on watching the latest ‘Britain’s Got Talent’.

As I was watching several videos, some with phenomenal acts and others with individual singers, it struck me how important music is to me personally as an autistic person.

As a child and a young adult I had very few friends, so I would either take refuge in the local public library or immerse myself into listening to music that evoked emotions inside me.

Often I would focus on the lyrics of songs and relate to the poetry of the message, but more often the melody and the complexity of a music piece would be the therapy tool that would both give me goose pimples and affect my psyche in a very beneficial way.

I’ve contemplated that history of mine off and on over the years, thinking to myself how music might be one of the most successful tools to break through to those of us autistics that have great difficulty either relating to the non-autistic world or communicating with others how we feel.

When I was young I had a serious verbal communication problem which has been subsequently labeled Developmental Verbal Dyspraxia. It’s a convoluted label because it comprises various deficiencies but with me it could be described as speaking in gibberish, rearranging words in a sentence that made no sense, attempting to spit out that gibberish at warp speed, and in essence preventing most people from understanding what I had to say, how I felt, or most importantly understanding my view of the world.

Over the course of several years, my mother did what she could to find tools to enable me to function in life. One of those tools was singing lessons by a speech therapist at a theatrical school in Los Angeles where I grew up.

What I remember about that era taking those weekly singing lessons was first being able to look at the sheet music and lyrics twice and remembering every word. Secondly when I attempted to sing a song with the accompanying music I was able to get my brain to focus on articulating those words with the exact spot in the music score. There is a pattern to music and when one understands where each word belongs to a set of music notes, it gives the person a system to use to communicate.

Gradually I was able to associate words with the intended emotions of the song, and at least during the actual singing of any song, I was able to be understood by almost anyone.

That gave me great pleasure and a feeling of accomplishment for the few minutes of any song when I sang it that I was not different and finally others could understand me when I tried to communicate although it was not my personal thoughts whirling around in my mind.

Music Therapy is now recognized as one of the many tools to help autistic children come out of their shells and learn to use language among others in society.

But the greatest gift of music for me personally is the tapping into my soul and evoking emotions within me that are absolutely indescribable.

Below is an audition by a young woman that did that for me this evening and if you watch it, I hope you will understand a little about just how important music is no matter whether one is autistic or not.

To be continued…

Video: Kathleen Jenkins ‘Britain’s Got Talent 2016’

http://youtu.be/2CnbFjJw16w

Do autistics suffer the non-autistic trait of bigotry?

Subtitle: Not too many I hope… πŸ™‚

I was perusing the Internet and stumbled on the attached Huffington Post article which includes several Tweeted photos of interracial couples including a couple of photos submitted by Sen. John McCain’s (R) son with his beautiful wife.

What I have read is that the majority of autistics are innately non-bigoted in the way that we think, and we are less likely to become bigots as we grow into adulthood. Therefore we can infer that bigotry is caused by an environmental occurrence and is not necessarily a genetic predisposition but who knows; since I deplore bigotry of any kind I will assume that is a correct statement.

This article and substance is timely since a couple of US States are attempting to turn back the clock and reintroduce legislation to permit both interracial discrimination and sexual orientation discrimination; i.e. Kentucky and North Carolina.

When I recently read about Kentucky trying to reintroduce interracial marriage discrimination I started chuckling. And the reason for that is I am a descendent of probably the very first legal interracial marriage between a white man and an African-American woman, and guess what state that occurred in, Kentucky circa 1873.

My paternal great-great-grandmother Elizabeth whom I’m referring to above was the product of a white slave owner and a black African-American woman, and for the first eleven years of her life she was an African-American slave. She was born in Georgia and at some point she ended up in Kentucky when she finally became a “Freed Slave” as a result of the end of American Civil War circa 1865.

Now my great-great-grandfather John who was half white and half Native American knew that Elizabeth was a “freed slave” and that did not deter him from falling in love with her, marrying her, and subsequently having three children together, one of which is my great-grandfather.

I reference this snapshot of my ancestry because it got me thinking, “Just how far back did autism occur in my ancestry?”

Since autism is very prevalent on my maternal side but only slightly prevalent on my paternal side based on my research and analysis, I’m wondering if there’s a connection of autism, the story of John and Elizabeth, and the assertion that most autistics do not share the non-autistic trait of “bigotry”.

Therefore, if we’re going to continue budgeting the majority of money for research in lieu of providing support and services for those living with autism, I would like these kinds of questions answered versus what gene combination is responsible for autism. πŸ™‚

I think it’s far more interesting and may lead to new interventions to cure despicable human behavior such as bigotry. πŸ™‚

To be continued…

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/john-mccain-son-old-navy-ad_us_572a2969e4b096e9f08fe4fc?cps=gravity_5059_7124461948081139230